My sticker arrived!!

Hello Everyone,

Well my sticker has arrived for my bookmark. I have put a pick up to show you all. I am so impressed with myself for achieving this in 9 weeks. It is totally unexpected. I was hoping at the start to lose between 500 grams and 1kg a week. And some weeks I am almost quadruppling it. Isnt it weird that some weeks I might only lose 700 grams and then the next I lose 3.8kg. Just weird.

I went to the Police today to make a statement. The Detective I spoke with was alright, but the officer downstairs was an arrogant (&$)&#(&$)&. He was out back and the sign said, if unattended ring the bell.

So what do I do. I rang the bell. Next thing I know he comes out gives me the dirtiest look and then yells I am busy, I know you are here. Then went back mumbling. Next thing a young guy comes out and says how can I help you. The older guy jumps in and says NO HE IS BUSY. Almost yelling at me. His tone of voice was terrible. Then he said, WHATS WRONG THEN. What happened. I said the Detectives name who I had to see and said I was here to make my statement. His tone changed when he got on the phone to him. Then, in another angry tone he told me to sit there, pointing to the chairs across the foyer. So me being me and being defiant I stood lol. I wish I could have seen his badge. I would have sent a letter to someone lol. So I guess I am lucky my glasses are failing me at the moment.

As you probably can tell I was pretty damn mad.

Hopefully our car will be back on the road this week. Ell has been so busy with work he hasnt had time to fix our car. Its been almost a month now :( So Seb and I got a taxi today and went and picked up Ell at work and then went to the Police station. $17 What a rip off. Not to mention the trip home, another $17 and 2 hours off work for Ell so giving two statements cost us $100. Maybe more actually. Not happy about that, but would gladly do it given the circumstances. Not going into sorry.

A few weeks ago you might remember Ell and I had a woopsie lol. (Unprotected sex) Well AF arrived today. My first since April 2004. Its been so long lol. Wouldnt have minded it waiting to visit lol. But at least I know I am not preggers again. I was starting to worry to tell you the truth. I really want another baby, but next time I want to be much smaller. Hopefully I will be at goal before I get preggers again.

So now I am wondering what to do about contraception. Anything hormonal puts weight on me. The implant makes me sick. The only option I have been given is the Mirena IUD and the girls in my family who have had it told me it caused lots of pain and it was expelled within a week. Condoms hurt me now. I read somewhere some people have used natural sausage skins but I cant see Ell doing that and quite frankly I dont want a sausage skin inside me lol YUCK. So I am wondering about a diaphraghm but given the fact I am losing weight, and fast the fitting could change quite a lot and prove ineffective. Not only that if I am being irritated by a condom I am sure a diaphraghm would be the same.

I also put a pic up of a slice I made for Ell to take to work. It is almost gone now. Lucky it was only 14.5 points for the whole thing. I must admit I did have a taste and it was yummy. Could easily nibble on that all day lol.

I am thinking of making some nuts and bolts for him to try. But more bolts then nuts lol. It might be something else for him to nibble on thats not sweet but more savoury flavour.

1974 What a wonderful year!!! People were on WW way back then (2 years before I was born). I was given a link today for recipe cards from WW in 1974. Please have a look at them..........all. Click on the actual card and you will get a spiel about them. I will leave it at that. Click here to have a look.

Hmmm TTOTM. Like I said its my first time in a while, so it is my first one while on WW. So my goal this week is not to gain more than 500grams this week. I have dosed myself up on water today so hopefully that will help me. The toilet is my new best friend lol. Considering hooking a computer up in there. Just joking. The idea of touching the keyboard and umm well you get the picture. Hang on, what about that software that lets you talk instead of typing.

I am going to really push myself for the next few weeks. I have three weigh ins to go to complete my first 12 weeks of WW. I am going to get my 10% charm. I have 3.2kg to lose to get it. I know I will do it. I have lost more then that in a week so I know I can do this in three weeks.

Well enough from me. No doubt I will be back tomorrow to have another ramble lol.

Stay focused.

15kg GONE!!!

Hello everyone,

Well, I weighed in and have now lost 16.1kg and will soon have another sticker for my bookmark.

I didnt think I did this well but I am so happy.

Well, just a short note for now. I have things to do and I have to get ready to go to Target for their Toy Sale. I cant wait lol.

Hope you are all doing well.

Tess

Gone AWOL

Well hello everyone,

I have been AWOL havent I lol.

Thank you to those of you who have been coming back to visit this site. I have just updated some of my pics for you to see. I am not going to update my face pic until I have weighed in for the 12th time. Then we can all see if there is a difference. Fingers crossed there is.

I have been trying to keep myself busy, and with a 5 month old boy who is just like his dad and into everything, it isnt hard lol. Sebastian is running around in his walker and he loves visiting the bathroom lol. He loves the bath. When he is walking or crawling, I will have to make sure I keep it closed.

Well, I tried to relactate so Seb could drink my milk again, but I took Maxolon to get the supply up again, and well it was the same as before, not much result and I got depressed. I was crying at nothing. It was a really tough week for me. I just felt listless. So I did some thinking and concluded that Seb would be much better off with a happy healthier mummy so I rang up about swimming lessons for him so he gets the benefits of swimming, and it will be an outing for us as well. To think I actually did all the training for Austswim but never took the final exam so I could teach 6 months to 5 year old children. Elliott actually studied with me and he went on to do volunteer work, but never did the final exam either. I am a little shy about getting in the pool so Ell might get that job until I feel a bit more comfortable.

I saw an article on the news last night about FatBeds. It is through the Shapemaster system and their motto is You snooze you lose. Wouldnt it be great to lie down and have a little nap and be toning up at the same time lol. I actually emailed the guy, and just got another email too, he has all the equipment I would need to set up my own studio. If only I had $85,000 sitting in the bank. But the email I just got from him says he has secondhand equipment available for $27,000. Its actually something I would love to do. I had a flash of ideas on how to set it up and what it would look like. So if someone is reading this and has that type of money, please let me know. I have done a small business management course and would love to set up a business like that to help those, like me, who can not go to a normal gym due to medical problems to exercise. The town I live in is actually in the top three for the most obese people. So I would think something like this would be great for my community.

I have been busy with a 12 week challenge that was set up from the WW Forum. We have 14 people and are into our third week. We have lost 22kg so far. Pretty impressive I think. My WW@Home leader actually sent me a letter saying it is a great story for the WW Mag. I just cant imagine being in a magazine. Mind you I have said that in 2007 I will be the Slimmer of the Year. In my mind there are no ifs or buts, its like yes I will be Slimmer of the Year. So look out for me in 2007. Its going to be my year of fame lol.

Well Seb is hungry so I better go give him a feed and put him down for a nap. Then to get some breakfast myself. I really do need to eat earlier, but once I start I dont want to stop lol.

Hope you are all well.

Tess xoxoxo

Hello Everyone,

Well I have been really positive the last week. Well at least I have been putting on a brave face so I can show my little man all is okay. We have been going to the doctors so much lately. I HATE doctors lol. But when you need them they are there.

Well for poor little Seb he finally got his 4 month needles yesterday. He was a month overdue for them as he has been so so sick. He has been having Reflux formula since he was born and since he has been on Ventolin and antibiotics he has become worse. I asked if he could have some medication for it as he has been vomiting really bad. I was tempted to video tape him doing it and sending it in as an audition tape for the next excorcist. I decided against it as the projectile fluid was a creamy white colour and not slimy green lol. But back on a serious note. The doctor (not my usual)looked me up and down, then looked at Seb and said, "Hmmmm he is a big boy isnt he." Yes I know he is a big boy. But what I was trying to tell him was that he had lost 1kg over the last month or so since he had been sick and I didnt want it to continue. Not only that, but what happens if you combine asthma and vomiting??? He was starting to choke on it!!! DO THEY NOT UNDERSTAND???

So after having told me he is a big boy etc he told me to start him on solids as it would help his reflux. Sure it might. But why is it all the ladies I know have had problems when introducing solids with their reflux babies. Not only that I wanted to wait until he was 6 months old before I started solids as I have asthma, allergies and eczema so I wanted to reduce the chance of him getting it too. Poor little thing already as asthma so I dont want him to get anything else.

Ahhhhh, I feel better getting that out of my system.

So I guess you can see I have been getting a bit stressed about it all. But in one way it has made me so so determined to continue with this and not give up. I need to be fit and healthy so I can run around with Seb so he can be fit and healthy. Yes I did binge one night, but for the week I was still under my points.

I do Mystery Shopping and last night I had 3 jobs to do. I had to buy 3 Subway Chicken and Bacon Ranch Toasted Subs. I used to LOVE Subway, but am quite shocked at the points value it is. I know I could have had a 6 inch Sub so I could enjoy the flavour, but I have learnt not to put anything into my body unless I know it is going to be filling and satisfy me. So I came home and cooked Grilled Chicken and Vegies. The smell of the Subs were sooooo yummy though.

I have been treating myself of a Friday with a few chocolates. It is a really nice treat. I have been watching how many sugar points I have been having and this last week I had 7. I am sooooooooo impressed with that effort. I really tried my best to cut it down and I did it.

I am planning on starting to list down my intake I have each day so I can maybe get some ideas from your comments you can leave. I have been posting my food diary in my mother's group online and found it interesting to read the others.

In the past I have had problems eating 2 serves of fruit. Lately I have been making some aeroplane jelly with fruit in it. I think it is a fun way to eat fruit. I sometimes top it off with some yoghurt and thats my dessert. I must try and remember to put the yoghurt in the freezer so it can be more like icecream. Last week I was really naughty lol. I had jelly (0), fruit (1), yoghurt (1), and a Bowen Mango Icecream (2)broken up into the bowl. It was the best 4 points I have spent. It had lots of jelly so it made me feel so so full and I felt naughty as I could taste the icecream in each mouthful. I think it was better then having a big bowl of icecream like I would have done a few months ago.

I am getting the Contented Tummy cookbook soon and I am really excited about it. The recipes sounds lovely. I think I need to change things around a bit to make my food more interesting. Normally I am quite happy having meat and vegies for dinner but lately I have been wanting to go out for dinner to have something YUMMY, but I dont want to at the same time as I dont want to bust my points. Maybe making some YUMMY homecooked stuff will do the trick.

Oh, I havent mentioned yet. I lost 1.1kg this week YAY for me!!!! Thats a total of 12.5kg in 7 weeks. I have joined a 12 week challenge to lose 8kg by the 26 September 2005. I can feel it in my bones that I will make it, possibly lose a bit more.

I am going to make another page up for my goals, but thought I would post some here to give you an idea of what I want to achieve.

Non weight related Goals
Drink at least 2 litres of water a day.
Go swimming and walk around the pool.
Go walking for at least 60 mins a week.

5Kg Loss 187.7kg Achieved
5% Loss 9.6kg 183.1kg Achieved
10kg Loss 182.7kg Achieved
15kg Loss 177.7kg
10% Loss 19.3kg 173.4kg
20kg Loss 172.7kg
25kg Loss 167.7kg
15% Loss 28.9kg 163.8kg
30kg Loss
35kg Loss
20% Loss 38.5kg
40kg Loss
45kg Loss
25% Loss 48.2kg
50kg Loss
55kg Loss
30% Loss 57.8kg
60kg Loss
65kg Loss
35% Loss 67.4kg
70kg Loss
75kg Loss
40% Loss 77kg
80kg Loss
85kg Loss
45% Loss 86.7kg
90kg Loss
95kg
50% Loss 96.4kg
100kg Loss
105kg Loss
55% Loss 106kg
110kg Loss
115kg Loss
60% Loss 115.6kg
117.7kg Loss Personal Goal Weight 75kg

WOW What a journey I have embarked on.

My Bubba is sick :(

Well yesterday wasnt such a good day for me. The first day I went over my points. I am not so concerned about that at the moment, more the fact why I had a binge.

My bubba Sebastian has been sick for almost a month. I have taken him to the doctors and they said continue using the vapouriser, Panadol and baby Vicks. I did that, but I also have been giving him chest physio as well. He has been so so congested. He has gone off his booby juice and went on to the bottle, but as the month progressed he has been having less and less.

So I put my foot down and made another appointment for the doctors. He was away sick himself so thats why I had to wait until Friday. I thought Seb had an ear infection and throat infection, and guessed he had a chest infection but I tried to push the thought of him having asthma to the back of my mind.

I am asthmatic and as a child I spent many days and nights in hospital and I hated it. I also had lots of infections and my lungs were not good at all. I had so much Prednisone (steriod) to help open up my lungs it is not funny. That is why I had put on so much weight when I was little and I still have the round face and little bump at the back of my neck.

When the doctor said asthma I initially thought, "Yeah I thought so." But then I thought, "Oh no, my little man, I dont want him to go through what I did." I think said out loud I would get him into swimming to help his lungs. I had planned on doing that anyway. My family all love the water.

When I told Elliott I could see he was upset too. We had the girls with us so I didnt want to show the emotion I was feeling. I was so upset but needed to pretend everything was still okay.

We didnt get home from the Doctors until much later then I had planned. I had planned to have Chicken Breast and veges for my dinner and the girls were having pizza as a treat. The next thing I know I was cuddling Sebastian and giving him all his medicine and it sort of hit home. I was so so upset about it all. So i ended up having pizza (which I normally dont eat as I dont like it) and going over my points for the first time in over 6 weeks.


I have emailed Dominos to find out the Nutritional Value so I can work out the points but having a rough guess I think I went over 8 points for the day. Whats worse is that about an hour later I felt hungry. :( But I acknowledged this and didnt let myself go overboard again.

So in hindsight I know I could have been really bad but I didnt. I guess my subconscious was looking out for me.

Well I am off to research more about alternative treatment for asthma and what not to give him.

Take care and stay focused!!!

Happy New Year!!!

I know it may seem silly but many people celebrate this day, mainly the Treasurer because he knows its pay day lol, but why not celebrate today. Why not celebrate tomorrow too. I am begining to enjoy life more if you cant already tell. I am actually looking forward to life and not worried how I will manage with movement, but what I can actually go out and do.

Until recently I have been a hermit. I only go out when I have to, and that is just to the shops, late at night so not too many people see me, and then home again. But I have started to go shopping a bit earlier now and staying out a bit longer. Heck, I think Ell nearly died of shock yesterday when I asked if Seb and I could go for a drive with him to get out of the house. I didnt get out of the car, but I did get out of the house and I am guessing that is a step in the right direction.

Does anyone have problems with eating in public? Since I was young I have never liked eating in public. I feel as though everyone in the room has their eyes peering at you at every morsel you stuff into that mouth. On the odd occasion that I have eaten out I have barely eaten anything and when I get home I have to have another meal because I am so damn hungry. So I resigned myself from going out to eat so I dont have to worry about spending money on a meal I wouldnt eat and having a mini breakdown when someone watched me eat.

It even bothers me to eat dinner with the family. I make myself sometimes, but even now after all my progress I force myself to do it. Why? Well I want my DSDs to be well adjusted and seeing me hide in the corner to stuff my face isnt setting a good example. So when they are visiting us I try and sit down as a family with them for the evening meal. But it is still so so hard. DSD#1 (9yo)looks at me eating like I am taking the last mouthful out of her mouth to eat. She is the one that is overweight. So when I feel her giving me that look I remember why I am trying to lose weight and how she will take on some healthy eating habits.

On Wednesday DSD#1 came over and she wanted Nachos. She loves chips and doesnt stop at one mini packet. I am concerned at how much fat is in her diet. So I got out our lavash bread, cooking spray and spices and we made our own "chips" together. We cut out special shapes and words. She even made "I, then a heart shape, then U TESS with a star shape to the side. I did the same for her as well. She loved the special time we had together and I feel great that I showed her something she can do at home with her mum that is easy to do and gives them a meal at the end. DSD#1 had our chips with some salsa and she thought she was just it lol. Then she took a bag of them home for DSD#2.

DSD#1 has been asking me lots of nutrition type questions lately. I have been showing her the nutritional value information on the packets and she seems really interested. She got a packet of lollies from her place and said she could eat them as they had hardly any fat. I then asked her how many kJ are in them and she told me. I then explain what happens to our body when we eat more energy then we use and how it gets stored away in our body as fat. She really seemed to understand it. I also told her the best foods she could eat are low GI. She liked the idea of eating and feeling fuller for longer. She said how at her mums place she eats sugary cereal and when she gets to school she is really hungry and cant concentrate. Ahhh, now I know part of the problem.

DSD#1 has been diagnosed with ADHD but this has confused me as she is not hyper at all, just the opposite actually.So my guess is she is having high sugar breakfast, then going to school, feeling hungry, cant concentrate, then the teacher thinks she has ADHD. It is all making sense to me now. I wondered why they diagnosed her with ADHD as when they are here they dont get sugary cereals etc. The most sugar they get is when they have an icypole (only until they run out as I am making my own with diet cordial lol) DSD#1 is able to concentrate and is quite level headed when here so I guess thats where the problem lies. Might try and explain that to her as trying to talk to her mum about it is a lost cause. When I say something about it she goes on about how she gets X amount from Centrelink because of the ADHD. Hmmm 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, I get so mad when people care more about the money then their children.Well this post seems to be all about DSD#1.

I guess I have a soft spot for her. She reminds me so much of me, looks heaps like me too. I have noticed her copying me as well so I am hoping that she will also copy the healthy food I am eating. One can only hope this is what will happen.I think I am using my fitball more lately. I can feel a few more muscles I didnt know were back from holidays. I have been sitting on the ball and rolling my bum forward so my belly is facing up. Then while in that position I roll from side to side, then in a circle to the left, then to the right. I think it is toning that area and well lets face it, I do need to tone.

I put on a pair of shorts yesterday and felt naked lol. I am used to my clothes being skin tight etc but when I put on the shorts I felt them so loose on my legs. No longer do they look like bike pants. YAY If this is happening after losing 11.4kg what will happen when I have lost all 117.7kg??? Am I going to look hot or what!!!

Well I have put some ideas in my Hints and Ideas page and have one recipe so far. This weekend I am going to make up some pasties and pies. On WW I hear you ask lol. Well I have a pie maker and plan on using grainy bread for the crust, and fill it with top quality mince, onion, mushrooms etc. I told Ell I would even half fill some with the meat and top with some bacon and cheese. Will have to work out the points properly but I am estimating the pies to be about 4 - 5 points each. The pasties I will do with filo pastry and will half cook them in my grill or in the oven then allow to cool a bit then wrap them in the pastry and cook until they are ready. Will then freeze some so Ell can take them to work as well. He loves pasties. I am hoping they will be about3.5 points each so he will be able to have 2 and feel really naughty lol.

I might not post much over the weekend unless I get time and a brainwave lol But look out next week and I will tell you all what I have been up to and how my cooking went. If I can I will take some pics of the food too.

Take care and stay focused