Not going so well

Hello Everyone,

Well, lately I have been very down. Not sure why, but most likely PND. I just feel lifeless. I dont want to do anything, and I dont want to go anywhere. I just dont care.

Ell has confronted me about this several times as our relationship has been unsettled to say the least. I love Ell and I love Seb, but for some reason I feel lifeless and nothing is motivating me to get off my bum to do anything about it.
I just told Ell that I will go to the doctor to see what he says. I guess I have come to realise I need to do something, but at the moment I have no idea what to do about it.

I have been having lots of nightmares so that makes me not want to go to sleep, and then when I wake to get up with Seb I feel so tired I want to sleep, but know I cant. I have been sitting on the computer all day. Not doing much in particular, but just sitting here. Ell is so worried about me.

Thats all for now. Thanks to you all for your messages and emails. I read them and appreciate them but at the moment I just dont feel right.

Take care,

Tess